The Burn Barrel-Disposal Day

The Burn Barrel-Disposal Day

Year: 2007

Day: Friday June 22.

Hunter, Christian and their mother Angelica were busy in the living room of their four-bedroom home in a quiet and rural area on the plains. Angelica had been a single mother for the first time in her life with two disabled children. She worked from home as a consultant. She got paid a lot of money each day as she completed all of her work. Angelica was a half Hispanic and half Anglo-Saxon.

The twin's father was a flush Indian-Italian that Angelica had had a one-night stand with and became pregnant. The father didn't wish to be in their lives but Angelica had legally got the man to pay her child support. Hunter and Christian's father had given Angelica a yearly payment for the two boys on their birthday each year. She used that large sum of money to care for the boys and buy all of their diapers both cloth and disposable (Angelica mostly used pre-fold cloth diapers and plastic pants on the twins and occasionally disposables when they were out and about), special clothing, and strollers. Angelica was a socialite type of woman. She was successful, she was socially popular, and very, very intelligent.

Angelica had a lot of female and male friends. Powerful male and female friends that were in parts of every level of government and corporations possible. From federal, state, county and city. Angelica used to be a "Madam" in her youth. She had Senators, Congressman, police officers, Sheriff deputies, Prison wardens, a few CIA agents that worked at a desk at the CIA, county commissioners, and a few men a couple women that worked at city hall as "Clients" at one time or another. One morning, as usual, Hunter and Christian's mother was preparing the two twins to go to daycare when mother got a phone call on her cell phone. Mother had just completed Hunter's diaper change and had not even dressed him yet.

Angelica: Hi boss, I am just getting my two twins ready for daycare. Uh huh...Sure...when? (Looking at watch) I will be there as soon as I drop the twins off at daycare....

(Hanging up cell phone) Well boys, your mommy has a full day ahead of her. I have to get you all ready to go to daycare. I am sure Misses Newell will take VERY good care of you....

Angelica puts Hunter into a pair of bibs overalls and then puts socks and shoes on him then she goes over to Christian and changes his diaper. Then she puts a pair of plastic lined cargo shorts on Christian and a bright striped t-shirt on him and then socks and matching shoes that Hunter is wearing.

She then puts both diaper bags over her shoulder and then takes both twins' hands and then walks out through the front door, closing and thus locking the door. She goes to the garage and puts the two twins into their seats and buckles their seatbelts before getting into the driver's seat and starting the car. She backs out of the garage and heads to Misses Newell's house. The 20 minute drive seemed longer than usual because of all of the unusual amount of traffic. Once they arrived, she parked the car, got the two boys out and then brought them both to the front door. Angelica knocked at Misses Newell's door. A few minutes later, Misses Newell opened the door and smiled as she greeted all three, motioning for them to enter. As they entered the house, she closed the front door and then followed them all into the living room.

Misses Newell: Good morning sweeties, I hope you both are ready to have some fun today.

Angelica: (To Misses Newell) I can't stay long, I have to get to work then I have to meet clients after work so hate to drop and run but I have to go or I will be late for work.

bye boys.....

Angelica leaves and goes to work. This is the last time both Hunter and Christian will see their mother.

It was the month of May; it was just getting to be nice and mild out. Daniel and Misses Newell had adopted Hunter and Christian 7 years ago with all of their disabilities. Daniel had changed jobs and they now had five kids in diapers and pull-ups.

Misses Newell worked at home as a home daycare provider while Daniel worked as a trash man.

Daniel and misses Newell were worrying about how to afford all of the diapers that Hunter and Christian would need as well as their two kids.

While talking lying in bed one night, Misses Newell and Daniel began to discuss my fate.

hunter is a 10 year old boy that had been adopted with his twin brother who both had disabilities by both Daniel Newell and misses Newell. Hunter's twin brother and Hunter both wear diapers 24/7 because they have severe nerve damage that causes lack of control. They both can't walk, but can talk well.

Seven years ago, Hunter's twin and Hunter had been left at Misses Newell’s home daycare. When Hunter was 3 years old, his mother went out to a party. At some point, Hunter and Christian's mother, the last of their entire family, had been killed in a very fiery car crash due to her being drunk.

Misses Newell had learned of the crash the morning after, when she turned the TV on and the newscaster was talking about a car that had crashed overnight and had burned upon impact.

Misses Newell used the DVR to record the segment so that she could show it to the twins.

Once she woke the twins up that morning and got their diapers changed, she brought them to the TV to show them the footage. Mommy Newell and the two twins all cried hard. Then once they were done crying, Christian and Hunter didn't want to get out of bed or eat much...just drink for a week. Once Christian and Hunter got out of the grief of the loss of their mother, Misses Newell and Daniel Newell came in one evening holding a bunch of papers. They told Christian and Hunter that they felt so bad that we had lost their mother, so Misses Newell and Daniel had officially adopted them, at least until they could find another family to take them. The Newells knew that Christian and Hunter had major disabilities and that they were never going to get potty trained. Their mother had asked that cloth diapers get used on them but misses Newell had said that she doesn't like them but she’d be happy to use disposables on them while the two twins were there. Their mother had agreed but now that she had died, all of their things were brought over there and the cloth diapers. Plastic pants were included in with the cloth diapers since that is what they was used to wearing when their mommy used them on the two twins to be “greener” and more environmentally friendly.
Christian and Hunter were excited that they were going to be able to stay there with Daniel and misses Newell. Over the course of the next year, The Newells tried desperately to set the two twins back up for adoption. Six different families came to see the twins yet, they didn’t seem to be interested in two 4 year olds that were disabled and not potty trained.

Later on, a lawyer calls up and informs the Newells that due to a mechanical failure in the two twins' mom's car that caused their mother to die, and now there is a settlement of $100,000 for each of them to allow for the expenses of taking care of them but that the funds would be given out in $1,000 a month amounts via two separate debit cards for each twin. If more was needed, the financial overseers would move funds over to the pre-paid debit cards. Now that each of their funds has been nearly spent and the funds are low, Daniel brought up to misses Newell that they needed to consider some way to dispose of Hunter and Christian in some way. Daniel was the one that suggested that they should do to them what they do to the dirty diapers. Misses Newell became hysterical at the idea! As Daniel explained and described how it would be better for the two of them to be done this way, and that they had no other choice, misses Newell began to “warm up” to the idea.

Daniel and misses Newell both agreed that it would be best if both were disposed of separately and when their diapers were wet and or dirty. The last month had been spent going out and doing things like going to parks, museums. During the weekdays, misses Newell was busy taking care of other people’s infants and toddlers in her in-home daycare as well as taking care of my twin, me and her other three natural-born kids. Daniel was always at work early in the morning and back at home by 5:30 pm weekdays with most weekends off. Every two days, either Daniel or misses Newell were also burning a large load of diapers in their burn barrel. One evening, Daniel came home and wondered how many more days until the first twin was being disposed of. Misses Newell told him that she would make sure that he went into either the wet diaper trash can outside or the daycare trash can after lunch tomorrow and he would be there until he decided it was time to do a load in their burn barrel. Daniel agreed to that and said that he would burn a load probably by Sunday night. The Newells and my twin and I were put to bed the night before and were about to get the news of their lives the next morning. The next morning, the morning I was being put into the wet diaper pail outside in the backyard along with a whole full trash can full of my adopted sister’s and brother’s diapers  misses Newell came in get me out of my crib.  As she was undressing me to change my wet diaper, she began to talk to me in baby talk like she does to the other kids, mommy Newell began telling me that we can't take care of me anymore.

Mommy Newell: (To Hunter) It’s getting too expensive. I wish it didn't have to be this way but we kind of had no choice! Nobody would take you. We tried to get you another family but it didn't work out that way.

Hunter: Mommy! PLEASE!!! Don't throw me away!!!

Mommy Newell: Honey, we have no choice! It’s getting too expensive to buy special diapers and supplies when we already have to buy diapers and pull ups for the babies.

Hunter: Daddy! Do I HAVE to be thrown away???

Daddy Newell: I'm sorry son but we just can't take care of you anymore especially with the new baby

Hunter: Daddy, mommy told me that I was being disposed of...is that true?

Daddy Newell: Yes son! I'm sorry. We decided on it last night. Your mother was hysterical

Hunter: When are you going to do it?

Daddy Newell: Mommy and I haven't decided yet she's still torn up about this.

Hunter: Mommy, Will I get my diaper changed before I am thrown away????

Mommy Newell: Mommy will change you baby

Hunter: I am scared!!! What do you do with all of my diapers when you throw them away?

Mommy Newell: (With tears in her eyes) Mommy knows your scared sweetie and I wish we didn't have to do this

Hunter: Can I have my onesie taken off before I am thrown away? It's got a big wet spot in the back. Are you going to throw away all of my onesies and footies too?

Mommy Newell: (Still tearing up) Yes sweetie, mommy will and we won't have any use for them anymore so yes they are trash too. Yes sweetie you may were whatever you want or don’t wear what you want.

Hunter: When are you going to take me for disposal? What time are you going to do this?

Mommy Newell: After lunch sweetie mommy doesn't want to have to do this (reassuring her boy)

Hunter: (shaking a little in fear) I don't want to be thrown away mommy! PLEASE don't!

Mommy Newell: (Crying) I don't want to throw you away sweetie but we have no choice!

Hunter: Are you going to put me into the wet diaper trash can outside????

Mommy Newell: Yes

Hunter: what about all of my Huggies size six, Luvs size six, My Pampers size six and Parent's Choice diapers that are left over?

Mommy Newell: I will try and use them up on you even if it have to change you after you pee a little bit in the diaper.

Hunter: what about my cloth diapers? Mommy, I have all of my cloth diapers still, the ones I came to you with. What about using them inside my disposable diapers for more absorbency?

Mommy Newell: We are going to burn them sweetie, in a big barrel out back

Hunter: Are you going to burn all of my diapers too? My clothes too?

Mommy Newell: I'm gonna burn all of your wet and poopy diapers sweetie, your clothes, I don’t know yet.

Hunter: Can I go outside and see how you are going to...burn...all of my diapers and me?

Mommy Newell: yes, we can do that as soon as i am done changing your diaper sweetie.

Hunter: I'm thirsty mommy....may I get something to drink?

Here mommy...my bottle, May I have some milk mommy?

Misses Newell fills my bottle with chocolate milk.

Hunter: OH thank you mommy.

I drink it slowly.

Mommy Newell: That's a good boy.

I go and sit down on one of the plastic chairs. As I sit down, my bulging diaper begins to leak some, forming a small puddle in the seat.

Mommy Newell: Did you make a mess sweetie?

Hunter: Mommy! Yes, I think I am wet mommy!

Mommy Newell: Honey? Get me one of his favorite diapers with Elmo on them for me please and the wipes, thank….you.

Then she puts the wet diapers onto Hunter's chest while she opens the clean Huggies overnite diaper, puts in two thick booster pads/diaper doublers then lays the diaper down, then slides it under his butt.
Then mommy puts a lot of baby powder into the diaper and onto me shaking about half the bottle onto Hunter before she pulls the front of the diaper up, holding the diaper by the front wings as she lowers the front of the diaper down onto him.

Then she reaches to Hunter's left side and unfastens the tape from its resting place and pulls it over to the front taping panel then she does the same thing to the right tape.
Hunter is still holding onto his baby brother's folded over poopie diaper as well in his right hand and Hunter's wet Pampers diaper with the four cloth diapers inside is folded over and sitting on his chest.

Hunter: I forgot to tell mommy I was wet. I was too scared of being thrown away. I love how nice and comfy soft my diapers are mommy! Even when they are wet. I also just wanted to feel the squishy wetness of my diapers a bit longer before I told you I was wet. I hoped I wouldn't leak

Mommy Newell: It's ok sweetie

Mommy Newell: Why you scared hun?

Mommy Newell: It's ok sweetie it happens

Hunter: Where do all of the diapers go?

Mommy Newell: We burn them sweetie

Hunter: Are you going to burn ME?

Mommy Newell: Yes sweetie, in a big barrel out back with all your wet and poopy diapers. We don't have a choice.

Hunter: Why is Daddy taking all of my left-over, clean blue disposable diapers out of the closet??? I didn't get to use all of them yet mommy. Where is he taking them????

Mommy Newell: Yes sweetie, in a big barrel out back with all your wet and poopy diapers. We don't have a choice.

Hunter: Why is Daddy taking all of my left-over, clean blue disposable diapers out of the closet??? I didn't get to use all of them yet mommy. Where is he taking them????

Mommy Newell: He's gonna put them in the pantry so we can use them like rags for spills and messes.

Hunter: What time is it now mommy? Is it close to the time you are going to dispose of me?

Hunter: How long before you throw me away?

Mommy Newell: No sweetie it's only 9 am

Hunter: OK....Why is Daddy outside chopping all of that wood?

Mommy Newell: We use that to keep the diapers burning longer so that they burn all the way down.

Hunter: Are you going to use wood like that on me mommy?

Mommy Newell: Yes sweetie.

Hunter: Are you going to show me how you are going to throw me away?

Mommy Newell: What do you mean sweetie?

Hunter: Can I go outside and see how you are going to...burn...all of my diapers and me?

I want to know before you do it mommy

Hunter: Do wet diapers burn well mommy?

I sit up from where mommy had changed me and look up at mommy.

Mommy Newell: Yes sweetie we can. Mommy has some really nasty diapers from your brother that I can show you with.

Mommy Newell folds Hunter's bulging and soaking wet Pampers diaper over without rolling it up.

Mommy hands him his folded, wet disposable diaper then she takes him by his left hand and walks outside with him.

Hunter: Mommy? Will I be asleep when you do this??? Can I be asleep when you throw me away.

Mommy Newell Hands the soaked Pampers to Hunter. Hunter takes his rolled up Pampers and carries it in his right hand while he holds Mommy's right hand in his left.

Mommy Newell: Which do you prefer sweetie?

Mommy Newell leads Hunter out onto the back porch.

Hunter: Mommy...I don't know....I leave it up to you and daddy.....but if I get to choose, I want to be awake so I can see what is happening.

Mommy Newell folds Hunter's bulging and soaking wet Pampers diaper over without rolling it up.

Mommy hands him his folded, wet disposable diaper then she takes him by his left hand and walks outside with him.

Hunter: Mommy? Will I be asleep when you do this??? Can I be asleep when you throw me away.

Mommy Newell Hands the soaked Pampers to Hunter. Hunter takes his rolled up Pampers and carries it in his right hand while he holds Mommy's right hand in his left.

Mommy Newell: Which do you prefer sweetie?

Mommy Newell leads Hunter out onto the back porch.

Hunter: Mommy...I don't know....I leave it up to you and daddy.....but if I get to choose, I want to be awake so I can see what is happening.

Mommy Newell: Are you sure sweetie bends over and grabs the plastic Wal-Mart grocery bag with 6 dirty pampers in it.